Big Mama

When I started this blog, I was determined to write EVERYDAY, I was CERTAIN I had so much to say that I would never run out of ideas and the words would just flow with ease and I would have no problem keeping it updated. I'm still certain I have a lot to say, not so sure anyone wants to hear it all the time. Today I am asking myself the question "why not write, something, anything...why the lack of discipline...lack of commitment"? I haven't come up with an answer yet. I guess there are more than a few excuses I could give, alot of my story is painful, I don't feel like doing it, the kids take my attention away, it's too hard to get up early so I have the silence I need to focus, I have a very legitimate fear of commitment to anything, I have never been disciplined about anything in my life why start now, it's easier to waste time on FB...you get the picture right. I've reached a bit of a realization this morning though, I am only cheating myself. Then again, that's something I've always been really good at!! So, I decided to sit down and type, and post and no matter what it said or how good I thought it was I would put it out there, for myself. This morning started like this for me:
Around 6:00am my 3 year old son climbed into to bed with me. He said he was cold and he needed some covers. I lifted the blanket and he snuggled in beside me. He wrapped his little arms around as much of me as he could and gave me a great big squeeze and said " I love you Mama" I kissed him on the top of his head and told him "you are my great little man" to which he responded " and you are my great big mama"
That is definately worth sharing with ANYONE!!